FML

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This can't be good.

I hate how I keep all my feelings bottled up inside nowadays. I guess it's because I try to avoid a confrontation. I'm supposed to be enjoying my life right now but it's hard. And my right eye has been twitching. That means I'm stressed because the last time it happened was when I was with my ex. I just want to be happy. Why can't I feel that way? I feel like I'm doing something wrong. But whatever. I put myself in this situation and I guess I have to deal with the consequences, even though everything seems to be pissing me off right now. Thank god I'm on vacation this week. I could use a getaway. Anyone interested in going to Atlantic City with me? I'll get the room.

Something for the weekend.

So I'm heading out in a few minutes...another night of drunkenness. I'd stay home but I'd just be miserable by myself. I'm not exactly in the best mood but alcohol helps (spoken like a true alcoholic).

I need to get a lot off my chest. I'll probably post something tomorrow when I wake up. It seems like writing is the only way for me to feel better these days. I'd probably make for a good reality tv show. Anyone know any producers looking for a new face? hahaha

Well, peace out for now.

Keep on hoping...

(I figure I'd try something different and post a pic of myself before I write each entry. Is that corny? hah. I dont care.)

So here I am...blogging. Again. I don't know how many of you will find my life interesting but I guess I just need a place to put all my thoughts since my life has kind of been an emotional roller-coaster these past few months. But let's save that mess for later.

Went out last night with the "girls." It was fun, though I had a headache most of the night from pregaming too early. I guess I was already having my hangover haha. Anyway, I was kind of getting annoyed at this one person because they obviously showed no respect for the fact that I showed up with my current "significant other." It amazes me how arrogant some people can be. Especially when they're young. Not that I think I'm old...but I do think I've reached a certain level of maturity where I respect everyone until they give me a reason not to.

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Oh, and I pre-ordered a T-mobile G1 the other day. I've been a diehard Sidekick fan for almost 3 years now and I have to say that I'm sick of it. It's time for a change. I think the G1 looks pretty nifty though. It doesn't ship out until October 22 sadly. I guess I can wait.

So what's new with my life? Not too much really. I'm in another relationship after a brief stint of being single. I'm happy, but starting over is hard after being with someone for 3 years. It's like I'm learning things for the first time again, and I'm not exactly sure how I feel about it. I really like this person and I'm sure they like me too, but there's always those things little things that stick out and kind of ruin everything. I won't get into that because there's nothing I can do to change them. The only fear I have is that they'll lose interest in me. I guess that's one of my biggest fears now when it comes to relationships, since my ex broke things off by basically saying "I think we should take a break so I can be sure you're the right guy for me." After 3 years you'd think someone would be sure, but I guess not. Fuck my life (oh and that's pretty much the only fucking that's going on in my life in case you're interested. haha).

start of something new.

So I'm giving the blogging thing a shot again...haven't done this since Xanga was popular haha.